Day 4:

Due to unseen forces that I cannot control, I fell, hard, off of the non- smoking wagon.... the only reason that I was trying to quit was due to an upcoming surgery. The surgery is cosmetic in nature but if it is not done, and soon, my immune system will become null and void and then my entire existence will follow suit. It is a sad world we live in. We work hard, take care of others, but when it comes down to a matter of life and death, it looks like death is the only option. So, I smoked today and without throwing a pit party and, hopefully tomorrow things will turn around and I can be back on the wagon. If not, I will just smoke myself into oblivion.